juliajieunkim

I notice the light on the walls,
and the trees gently shaking with the wind.
I notice the leaves dropping from the branches.
The beauty makes me feel in awe.
I feel deeply moved
and touched that I get to see this beauty.

When the traffic is loud,
I’d rather stay quiet.
And when the road overwhelms me
and I’m needing focus,
I guess it’s because I want to reconnect with myself.

When I’m feeling hot,
I’d rather dip my body in the water
instead of going into an air-conditioned room,
because the coolness of the water
on my skin
rejuvenates me,
and I feel so alive.

When I wake up,
I always wake up to different feelings,
and the night before, I can never guess
what tomorrow’s me will be like.
It’s so unpredictable.
I look at a list of feelings
to help me understand
what’s going on inside of me.
Naming the feeling
makes me feel better
and more at ease.

What I’ve been craving
is a deep sense of love and care—
for my feelings, my needs,
my spirit, my body.
It’s not just care;
it’s a deep presence,
a recognition of the things that have been hard recently.

Because it’s only when I look inside myself
and connect to these feelings
that I can truly understand myself.
And feel comfortable
with who I am,
and really love myself
in a sacred way.