juliajieunkim

Being there for someone,
to give presence and contribute,
is something I allow myself to do —
because it’s something I probably needed
when I felt alone.

And it was getting blurry for me —
whether I’m doing it for me
or doing it for you.

You told me twice,
in different ways,
that you wanted me
to spend time with me —
as that’s something I’d shared with you
I was needing.

Now that I’m alone,
doing things for me,
I’m reminded of what it feels like
to put myself first
and care for my body.

It’s clear to me now
that you felt sad
because it matters to you
that I show you —
and to me,
that I matter to me.

So thank you for your care.
I feel so grateful
that you didn’t just stop the connection,
but instead expressed to me
what was alive in you.

Your reminder
reminded me that
I also need care —
and that care for you,
and care for me,
can coexist.